To Whoever is in control:

I just haven't grown up this much yet. 

I've never gotten this far before, and I don't know what to expect, or even how to handle it.

I haven't a clue where this life will take me.

That stuff I always pray for from a distance is actually taking shape. 

I'm not sure how to react as it forms, but I am sure that the way that I am now isn't quite right.

I know in a few years I'll giggle inwardly about how young my mindset was. 

But for now.. all I've got are foreign experiences holding out their arms, waiting to embrace me.

I'm having such a hard time trusting them. 

But I trust You, and I think that's just enough to get me through all of this. And I believe that You'll do whatever it is You'll do with flying colors.

I need a recap of Matthew 6.

34 Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.