"....please don't fight these hands that are holdin you."
This song took on a whole new meaning. Yes, it's being sung from God's perspective. But I was feeling that it has reference, also, to the people He puts around us. Those tangible beings He puts in our path to hold onto us, comfort us, and provide strength for the next few steps.
That's nice.
But still, my life has been flipped. Everything is in a new place. Not really "out of place".... I guess things have just fallen and now have to take root? Doesn't mean I'm totally cool with it all yet, but it means I have to become that way. I refuse to live in discontentment.
Here's the deal: I'm home. I have a list of books to read, but I'm occupied daily. Really though, I feel like that's what I need right now. I need the company more than the solitude and books. I used to think not being okay with being alone in rough times was weak, but now I'm realizing that the last thing I need is to be alone to myself and this hurricane. I need those people and families to hold onto me. At least until the storm, along with my emotions, become calm enough to survive the silence.
It will take time.
For documentation purposes: this season that I'm in is crazy. It's a whirlwind. I never really know the "plan" so, simply, I live day by day.
I'm just waiting for some sort of blueprint so I can start my books back up in peace.
...Let's end this one on a good note, shall we?
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