I've realized something about myself this year. When troubled waters rise and stress comes even remotely in my direction..... I would rather just lie down. Just lay, and let it rush over me.
I don't want to fight it; I've never been much of a fighter. And I hardly want to test my strength to stand against it... I'm just too tired for all that.
I've also realized that this isn't exactly the best approach. Because life goes on...... and I can't lie around forever. So, living just comes in waves nowadays. I'm calling it a season.
And though I love Jesus Christ with so much of me and I fully believe, hope, trust, and have seen that everything works out perfectly in it's timing. That I have a future and a hope. That ALL THINGS work together for good. And that I will learn grand lessons out of all this..
That doesn't stop the blindside wails to my inner organs.
I still genuinely want out of this season as fast as possible.
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