02/02/09 - 09/22/09

So my latest journal is packed to the brim.. overflowing, actually, since I haven't gone through with getting a new one just yet. I'm giving it to one of my best friends tomorrow so I decided to go ahead and read it. All the way through. From cover to cover... Ya know, I'm just not sure how I did that.

At times I was INCREDIBLY bored with my whining and rejoicing... but I'm glad I went through with it. I was surprised..... as chaotic as I thought I/that was..... it was actually very systemized. All of the entries flow. Though some HUGE portions were left out, I could connect the dots and fill in the missing puzzle pieces to recall the full life that the paragraph was outlining. What I'm saying is- I just read the book of my life from February 2009 to today. All of the ups, downs, twists, and turns.

As I was reading, I couldn't help but notice the start of things that are now worn out. At the time they seemed so fresh, and so frail... and today they seem almost hardened. Gray, even. But I hope that's just my wacked imagination. I'd like to think that we all have simply grown, not decayed and lessened.